Monday, February 28, 2005

Where's my Advil?

Pounding Headache
Must go home
I'm stressed

Oscars - PT. 2

Jamie Foxx -- Best Actor. Horrid speech.

Morgan Freeman - a total class act.

Hillary Swank - always prepared as a true, professional actress should be

Cate Blanchett - I was taking a shower when she got her award so I don't know

The Oscars was dull. Chris Rock played it too safe.

The Oscars Recap

I am so disappointed. I thought Chris Rock was going to kick butt! He is funny but there's so many boring awards to give out. Also, if I have to listen to another song sung by Beyonce - I'm going to go postal on someone big time... She can turn any beautiful movie song into a Destiny Child's crapfest.

Thank god, Morgan Freeman finally won an Oscar. About time he received some praise and props.

More later or maybe tomorrow because this show is putting me to sleep.

ADD Nerds In Concert!

Old San Juan, PR

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Miscellaneous - Blah, Blah, Blah

I live in Williamsburg and it's not as hip as everyone thinks it is. Especially not the part that I live in. Yes, I see lots of people moving here that are quite obviously not from New York and I think how they all got suckered into moving here. I came here out of necessity and they have volunteered to live in an over-hyped and over-valued rinky dink part of brooklyn. But these are youngs kids and I see their stay here being temporary. It's never going to go back to the way it was before and that's a good thing but the way it is now is temporary. Hm, I could see it becoming sort of Park Slope-ish in a few years...Maybe then I will decide to move to a nice apartment.

Finally! The Oscar Awards are tonight! Mark called me about an hour ago and we started talking about our favorites. I think it's between Million Dollar Baby and The Aviator for Best Movie. Best Actor? Definitely Jamie Foxx. Best Actress? Hillary Swank. Best Supporting Actor? Clive Owen. Best Supporting Actress? Cate Blanchett...We'll soon see if I'm right or wrong. I love seeing what everyone is wearing, who's hosting and who's speech is the lamest and most moving.

Know what I hate. These effing mommy and daddy blogs. I have tried reading them but if you yourself do not have children - it will put you to sleep or a coma - whichever comes first. Every mom or dad thinks their kid is the greatest. I'd rather have a puppy. A wittle, wittle puppy, awwwww...

Anyway, so like I was saying. These mommy/daddy blogs are popping up everywhere. It's not the fact that these are parents that are blogging, it's the fact that they describe themselves on their blogs as just parents. So they're not individuals? Not just a man or a woman? Not an artist or engineer? No, they're a mom or dad. Sort of like Lisa Whelchel and her crazy ass blog. This WAS a hollywood actress! Now all she talks about is her husband, kids, church and her quasi-gambling addiction.

I was checking out Craigslist today after not looking at that site for months. I decided to entertain myself by posting as a escort. Got over 50 responses and no lie, most of them described themselves as married. Ladies, watch your men. If they know about Craigslist, trust me - they're looking for some punani on the side... I always enjoy looking for the ads placed by a former friend of mine, Gary. His ad is alway in Casual Encounters and its the one with the most spelling errors and lack of commas and periods. Plus his ad is ALWAYS in caps. Don't answer his ad, ladies. He just wants to jerk off while watching you tied up to his socks and some wirehangers. He also likes to take pictures of that... and yes, he is married but he won't lie to you about that. Don't say I haven't warned you.

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Before I Practice

I'm up early to do some Yoga. I am trying to keep this promise to myself to get up earlier and practice whether I want to or not. Yoga is not just an exercise for the body, it's a spiritual practice that is excellent for your spirit and enlightenment.

Major, major changes are happening in my life. But at least its not bad and overly painful changes like in 2002. This time, they're changes that are meant to tell me that there is a better way. A better life. A better way to function and exist within this world.

Mr. Wiggles

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Saturday, February 26, 2005

The Queen is not attending Charles' Wedding

Prince Charles Posted by Hello

Musician Du Jour: Chris Botti

Chris Botti Posted by Hello

Chris is not your average musician. He is an extremely talented Trumpeter and his music just makes me swoon..... :)

It's classic, it's jazzy and he truly makes it his own.

If you're open to something new and different that just takes you back to the old days when jazz was more appreciated, check out Chris's website. Fabulous and he's a hottie too!

An Osho Moment:2/26

Gautam Buddha is passing near a village which consists of high caste brahmins only. They are very much against Gautam Buddha, they have all gathered outside the village to condemn him, to abuse him. He stands there listening to their abuse, their allegations, their lies. Even Ananda -- who has been with him all these years -- feels angry. Because they were born into a royal family: they were warriors, their whole training was to fight. But because Gautam Buddha is present, he controls himself; otherwise he would have killed one or two people then and there.

Gautam Buddha said to them, "You see that the sun is going to set soon, and we have to reach the other village before the sun sets. If you have not finished all that you wanted to say to me, I will make a point that when I return I set aside enough time to listen to you again. And in two days, I will be returning along the same route -- so it will be very kind of you if you can wait just two days."

One man from the crowd said, "You don't seem to be disturbed at all. And we are not just saying things to you -- we are abusing you, insulting you."

Gautam Buddha said, "You have come a little late. If you had come ten years before, you would not have gone back alive. I am also a warrior. There would have been bloodshed here; not a single man in this crowd would have gone back alive. But you have come a little late.

"In the village just before this village, people came with sweets and fruits. And we said, `We eat only once a day, and we have taken our food, so it would be very kind if you would take these things back with you. We are grateful.' What do you think they did with those sweets and those fruits?"

Somebody said, "They must have distributed them amongst themselves; they must have eaten them."

Buddha said, "You are intelligent. Do the same: whatever you have brought, I don't accept; take it back. Because unless I accept your insult, you cannot insult me; it is a two-way affair. It is your mouth, you can say anything -- but unless I accept it, you are just talking into the air. Just go home and say all these things to each other; enjoy. And I will be coming again after two days, so be ready."

They were shocked, and they could not believe -- what kind of man is this? When they moved on, Ananda said to Buddha, "This is too much. There were moments when I was going to jump and hit the man! Just because of you, I tried to control my temptation."

Buddha said -- and remember it -- he said: "What those people were saying has not hurt me.

What you are saying hurts me. You have been with me for so many years, and yet you are not aware enough to know what to take and what not to take? Can't you discriminate?"

I want you not to become missionaries, I want you to become messages.

And that is possible only if you are utterly selfish, so that before you start helping others, you have helped yourself; before you start enlightening other people, you are enlightened yourself.

That's what I mean by being selfish.

Whatever you want to spread must be your living experience.

-Osho, Beyond Enlightenment

A Moment to Share ....

I am all Paris Hilton-ed out! I have had enough of gossip about her to last me a life time. Every magazine you pick up, there she is. Turn on the Tv, there she is too. All my favorite blogs, dammit, there is she again. There is no escaping her. Not even on my blog. Can anyone tell me what EXACTLY Ms. Hilton has done that has merited her being so famous and at this point - overexposed? Inquiring minds would like to know.

If hackers are going to be getting into anyone's Sidekick, why not the president's sidekick. I'm sure Georgie boy has one too. He hides it in Condy's punani. I know you know that those two are getting down and dirty, right? Oh you didn't? Well, let me enlighten you... they're doing the nasty.

But enough gossip! For today that is...

Went to see " Diary of a Mad Black Woman" - very, very funny! Check it out if you are in the mood to laugh your bum off..

And now its time!

Enjoy your evening everybody!

Just Me and My Gummies

I decided to google myself and found 50 listings for myself. Isn't that wild? To go from zero to fifty in such a short period of time. Of course, its all mainly comments that I've left on other blogs. No biggie... But when the internet caches something by you, it's there forever LOL

Anyway, I'm going to check out "Diary of a Mad Black Woman" tonight. From the looks of the trailer, it's hysterically funny and I could use a few laughs. This week was long and dragging... I had intended on meeting up with a certain buddhist group but I just may just skip it this time around. Another weekend on the DL... the way I like it...


Don't Go Back to Sleep (Poem)

For years, copying other people,
I tried to know myself.
From within, I couldn't decide what to do.
Unable to see, I heard my name being called.
Then I walked outside.

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.

People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.

Don't go back to sleep.

Mevlâna Jalâluddîn Rumi
Version by Coleman Barks

Meaning of Love

A man once fell madly in love with a beautiful woman. He followed her for days and finally went up to her on the street and declared his undying, all-consuming love.

He went on and on, and finally the woman interrupted, “Your words are lovely,but my sister is coming along behind me. She is far more beautiful than I am,and I’m sure that you will prefer her to me.”

As the man spun around to took at the beautiful sister, the woman slapped him sharply on the back of his neck. She exclaimed, “I thought you said that your love for me was all-consuming and undying. Some love you have! The instant I mentioned a more beautiful woman, you turned away from me to took at her. You don’t even know the meaning of love!”

==Sheikh Muzaffer

An Osho Moment : 2/25

BOREDOM IS GETTING STUCK at one point -- repeating, repeating, repeating. Joy is in exploration -- finding new people, new spaces. It is simple common sense.

People are bored in their job because they allowed others to decide their job; their parents wanted them to be a doctor, so they are a doctor. They never had any inner urge to be a doctor, and they never listened to their inner voice.

It is never too late; they can start listening to their inner voice. And it is better to drop a job and do the thing they always wanted to do. It may be a loss in salary; economically it may not be good, but spiritually it is going to take away the boredom. And what are you going to do with the money, with all the facilities that the job gives you, if you are utterly bored? It is better to be a beggar but not bored, than to be an emperor and be bored.

These are common-sense insights. The cities are becoming bigger and bigger. The villages are disappearing, and with the disappearing villages the pure air, the unpolluted atmosphere -- that is disappearing. People should just see it; they should start moving towards the villages. They should start doing farming, gardening; and there are thousands of other things. It just needs a little courage.

The city has no future.

Small villages can convert themselves into communes, which would give them a new structure, which would make people free of children and would make the children free of parental power. And they could have more fresh food, fresh water, fresh air.

There were all running to the city for one thing -- because it gives money, and the villages cannot give money. Why have villages been disappearing, and big, monstrous cities coming up? The reason is that everybody is after money, not understanding a simple thing, that money cannot buy anything that makes life a beautiful, blissful pilgrimage. It can buy many things, but they are useless if the man himself loses his soul.

If the cities disappear into villages, much of the pollution will also disappear. The cities are almost like a canceric growth, that goes on growing bigger and bigger. The people in power cannot do anything because their power needs money -- not love, not blissfulness, not joy -- just money.

AND YOUR SO-CALLED WISE PEOPLE are nothing but politicians in another garb of religious heads; their whole interest is also in power. It is a different kind of power, more subtle, but all the same it is power. They would not like the cities to disappear. Their power depends on the boredom of man, his loveless life, his meaningless life, his anguish, because these are the things which bring people to their feet -- to the churches, to the temples, to the synagogues. They may say great things, but basically they don't want these things to disappear. If these things completely disappeared, churches would be empty and nobody would go to the synagogue -- there is no reason to go to the physician because you are sick.

There is a certain vested interest that the physician has in your sickness. I have heard of a young man who had just come home from medical college. His father was not feeling well. He said, "I would like to rest for a few days. And now you are back fully qualified... I am proud of you, that you topped the university -- now you take care of the dispensary."

After three days the son came and told the father, "You must be proud of me! That old woman -- the richest in the city, whom you have been treating for thirty years -- I have treated her in three days. Now she is perfectly okay."

The father said "My God! She is the woman who has paid all your fees and all your expenses at medical college. She is also paying the expenses of your younger brother in college. You have destroyed half of my business!

"You idiot, don't you know that when a poor man comes you should cure him immediately, because he is going to be an unnecessary harassment. When a rich man comes, take time -- there is no hurry. If one illness disappears, let another appear. A really rich man should be a lifelong patient. This is a basic rule of the profession. You have learned medicine, but you have not learned the medical profession."

The priest has a vested interest in man's misery. And it is really unbelievable, but it is the truth: the magistrate has a vested interest in criminals, the advocates have a vested interest in criminals. They are supposed to do justice, they are supposed to be fair; but basically their profession is based on these poor people. If everybody is a nice, good gentleman and there is no criminal anywhere, what are all your magistrates, all your jailers, all your advocates, and all your legal professionals going to do? They will have to commit suicide -- their whole profession will be gone.

Osho: Light on the Path: Talks in the Himalayas

Friday, February 25, 2005

Finally Friday

Good Morning all!

I cannot tell you how much work I have to get done today. I will not be leaving the office today until ALL of it is completed. When did I become a workaholic? Working late nights and even considering going in on the weekend? It's just not healthy.

Thought of The Day: Facing Your Fears
Before you can become a light-bearer, you must walk through your own darkness. The bearer of the light does not deny the darkness, but walks through it.

When there is nothing about yourself or anyone else that you are afraid to look at, the darkness has no more hold over you. Then you can walk through the darkness and be the light.

Where does light come from? It comes from you. Once you stop playing the victim and face your fears, the atmosphere that surrounds you brightens. In your blessing of yourself, the entire world is forgiven.


"A calm person reflects restfulness in her eyes, keen intelligence in her face, and proper receptivity in her mind. She is a woman of decisive and prompt action, but she is not moved by impulses and desires that suddenly occur to her."


"Everyone has self-limiting idiosyncrasies. These were not put into your nature by the Gods, but were created by you. These are what you must change-by remembering that these habits, peculiar to your nature, are nothing but manifestations of your own thoughts.


"In being spiritual, mental, and material service to others, you will find your own needs fulfilled. As you forget self in service to others, you will find that, without seeking it, your own cup of happiness will be full."


"Ordinary love is selfish, darkly rooted in desires and satisfactions. Divine Love is without conditions, without boundary, without change. The flux of the human heart is gone forever at the transfixing touch of pure love."

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Get me outta here!

Today just fucking dragged. Swear to the Gods I thought the day was never going to end and I was just going to end up jumping from my building. Nothing bad happened but I just felt to restless today that I couldn't take being in such a small office. I felt completely claustophobic.

Anyway, seems we have quite a winter storm coming our way. Emily was thrilled to bits about it. Of course, she loves snow because she didn't grow up around it, what with being from Hawaii and all. I'm not a big fan of the snow. But I'm used to it. However, no matter how much it snows in New York - my favorite season continues to be Spring....