Sunday Lounging

Ok, so much for me not blogging over the weekend.

I've started my new job and I have no computer access. I'm not exactly complaining because I think I spend way too much time in front of this computer as is...

The new job is going ok. There are alot of employees and I'm still learning their names. My manager just got a promotion and so I will not have a chance to work with her. She's being transferred to a different division... My new manager is younger than me and she wears braces..this should prove interesting...If you were to see us next to eachother you would think that I was the manager...clothingwise anyway... Too soon to say how everything is going to go but you know I'll let everyone know..

It's a sunny day here in Cali... I think I'll go for a walk...day is too nice to waste it indoors...

Off to Work

I start at my new job today and I am SO nervous. I'm sure I'll do fine but I feel like the "new kid" on the block...

I'm sure everything will turn out fine...

After work, JM and I are off to see a play...Yay! I've haven't been to see a play in awhile...

Later!

Beautiful Agony

Have you ever wondered what random people look like while having an orgasm? Yeah, me neither. But that hasn't stopped the website, Beautiful Agony from putting together videos and videos of people just having orgasms.

They even have free samples for you to indulge your voyeuristic tendencies. Enjoy! :)

If only dreams came true

Yes, die! die! die!

Ok, I know "die" actually means "the" but I can hope, right?

Die hiltons! die or at least just go away and never come back.

Damn, Finally...

My keyboard was finally delivered.

Boycott UPS anyway. Those bitches!

Life In South Cali

Well, I just got my first hysterical family member email. It was from my sister, Yinorah. She's freaking out because I did not send her the weekly email that I supposedly "promised" her that I would send her. Shit, if I knew that all I had to do to get my family's attention was move, I would have moved ages ago :)

JM and I will be heading up north to spend the holidays with his family. I can't lie. I'm a bit nervous about it. It's a big deal to me! We will be going to his parent's place and then everyone including his sisters and significant others and kids will be heading up to San Francisco. I've never been there so I'm psyched about checking it out.

As for how things are going with JM and me. Well, I had forgotten that living with someone is no walk in the park though JM and I get along fabulously. But like any couple, we have our differences. But one thing that I can say is that we are committed to making this work. I don't kid myself I know that we are going to have our good times and bad times and I have found that when there is completely open and honest communication - things run a bit smoother. But definitely, living together is nothing like dating. Also throw in the fact that Cali is zero like New York and you've got adjustment issues to take care of. As soon as I got here, I got like a mini-flu and had jetlag on top of that. Yup, it's so hard going from winter in NY to spring-like in California. JM has been an absolute sweetheart from day one. Spending as much time together as possible and when he's not around, he still calls me to check up on me and see if I need anything. JM is definitely an extremely loving and attentive boyfriend. I'm definitely a very lucky girl! Plus he's not a drama queen - that's my job LOL

Blah, blah, blah.... I have to get back to my snarky self .... eventually.

Could It Be?

I finally received a call announcing that my keyboard has been found and will be delivered to me today.

Ever the cynic. I'll believe it when I see it. :-D

Random

Do you have to have a big ego or be a bit of a narcissist to be a musician?

Do you have to mention how special you are in some of your songs? Of course not but if you listen to alot of the songs played on the radio, someone is busy tooting their own horn.

Btw, Mariah Carey you need to come up with some new poses. That whole video "Don't Forget about Us" is all about her posing in all her signature poses. Learn how to dance or work with someone in modeling. I probably know what the right side of her face looks like more than she does cause that's all we ever see.

I was reading LA Weekly and found it rather disturbing how many ads for cosmetic surgery were in there. I always read that California was the land of plastic surgery but it became real to me when I found no less than 10 pages of ad for plastic surgery in this weekly rag...

Sad. Very, very sad.

Crabby Cat

I'm in a shitty mood today. Busy berating myself for the usual stuff. I have no talents, no gifts to give. I'm just a fucking failure and all that other shit like that. I know I shouldn't do this to myself but I can't stop. On some level I really do believe this because Im 33 and I feel that I've made no real contributions to the world.

I'm not a person that can just take a job and live paycheck to paycheck. My work has to matter! It has to have an effect. A positive one.

Basically I'm dealing with the issues that I have always had about myself. JM has been so kind and has tried to snap me out of my funk but distraction doesn't work with me. I have to go through my funk and snap out of it when I'm good and ready.

Right now, this crab in hiding out in her shell.

What is my gift? What is my talent? Why is it always a big fucking question mark?